meanwhile, back in Gardiner 407

i have a lot to say, but unfortunately most of it is complaining! ill just tell the sensational bits, and grumble as little as possible. there was a bat on my floor last night!!! and i was the only one here so there is a part of the hallway that closes off, so i just shut it in, figuring i would call public safety in the morning (i was TIRED after my red eye). but the bat was gone this morning. so! good thing Jeff Corwin loves bats so much. he really helped me understand them, and now i dont fear them out of ignorance. im still in the numb transitional stages of returning to smith. how naturally selfishness comes! i just want to hole up here and have self-gratifying quiet times all day long. tomorrow morning we run the mile. im all ready nervous... i have been really struggling with anxiety these past weeks. its prolly connected to the fact that selfishness has usurped Jesus' throne in my <3. ttfn.